So kids are back to school, the leaves are dropping off the trees which makes for hours and hours of back breaking clearing in the garden and drive way, the weather is slowly catching me out and stockings and heals turn to woolen tights and fluffy boots. But some things remaint he same, the faces ont he commuters have solidified for the winter, perminant red glowing noses, miserable growling down turned mouths and big bulky coats which mean that a traditional 3 seater turns into a musical chairs game at each stop closer to London.

 

So far the heating is still intact and the cars are all working and have not frozen over, one of my least favourite jobs - scrapping ice off the car, this is perhaps one of the only times I will use gender to its fullest advantage and do that pathetic little girly thing, "but loook my fingers are blue I can't feel anything, it would be dangerous for me to do it...pweaseeee?". Then get a big lump of icy snow and pop it down his boxers when he's not looking :) It is also time for all may favourite things: Pumpkins lit up, hot mulled wine, fireworks and bonfires (I defy anyone who suggests they are not a secret pyromaniac) warm open fires, huge mugs of soup, top down on the car on sunny days with heater on full blast, big soft jumpers and lots of lovely parties. How can not like this time of year!

 

A colleague I have the pleasure of working with often always asks me "How am I choosing to feel today" ...I have at times been very cheeky and said things like....I am choosing to feel my husbands bollocks, or ...I am choosing to feel numb.....but for this season I will be mostly choosing to feel magical and michevous...because this is my time of year and I love it. Today I am choosing to have conjunctivitus ....I used to get this a lot when I was little as I have sensitive eyes...today I am choosing to get it because I loved getting up this morning and coming face to face with one of the characters out of Shaun of the Dead. My GP said to me today - don't worry in 5 days you will see a much better looking woman starting back at you, I think he has very high hopes for the power of just some simple antibiotic eye drops....perhaps they really do believe they are god!

 

So I am working from home: and what a funny thing that is, I missed my daily commute with all my grumpy favourties in place I stay at home and the cleaners come round, whilst on a conf call they Hoover maddly and noisily, they proceed to bump and shove all the things in the house to different places so it looks like they have done something and then pop their head around the office door to appologies and slope of early "so not to disturb" ... but they have cleaned my house for which I am ever greatful....so much so I want to hug them .... cleaners are perhaps more like god thatn GP's for me.

 

My husband and I continue to discuss living arrangements, Oast houses, barns, flats, Kent, London, New york managed to slip in yesterday Hong Kong has been in it and France too, we seem to be going in circles, perhaps too much choice is a bad thing, or maybe thats why people have children - because it make the choices some people have so limited it seems simpler in a way. Well I say bring on choice ... because if you are choosing every day then you are a lucky person, I would rather feel I had chioces everyday than feel like I had not.

 

I am choosing to have conjunctivitus .... and resmeble a gooey eyed bloody shot zombie .... and as long as this lasts until tomorow I willl not need to invest in a Trick or Treat constume to scare my neighbours (under the pretence that I am my step daughter).....she has her uses!