I haven't writen for a long time, lost of reasons, life is busy, thoughts have been all over the place, and because I have cave tendacies of sorting things out in m head not on screen. Also the last time I wrote a lovely long theraputic rant about how People create good things and bad things and all life does is hold a mirror up to us and reflect in the greed or glory ...and it di go on and on ..I saved it and then it was promtly lost in the virtual world of "it may never have been said". It served it's purpose though and I did feel better and a little bit more in touch with my own thoughts by the end of it.

 

2007 I think was a funny year, not a good not bad...some great stuff some hard stuff, and now I would like a year that is not like that - I would like to reflect a year that is fully of laughter, amazing experinces and learning and growth. I am trying to work out what I need to do to be a better person, to create goodwill and warmth so that I can help this relflect on others and on people I care about, I would like the UK to have a great year.

 

Unfortunatley it has't started off well, but I am unsure if this is because it is reflecting my behaviour (because that would trouble me seeing as I have been trying to be so good and kind to everyone) or if it is just bad luck...which I am not sure I believe in. I am confused about what else I need to do to make good things happen. At work we work hours like I have never seen before, at home we cram so much in so we are never wasting a second and at life my friends have all had bad news and troubling times with illness, deaths and fiscal worries.

 

If you truely believe that anyone can do anything if they really want to, then it make life very confusing - it mens there are too many options and chioces and not enough forces helping you narrow down how to make an important difference in the world. I used to think that the internet and teh power of the web was the way we could bring equality and fairness to dierse sets of people. I still do believe this, but I also see that people just use this opportunity to do bad things to - hence people are just creating the relfection that come back at them in whatever medium of life.

 

So if we can't help ourselves but creat good and bad things in whatever humans do then we are always going to have violence and badness in the world no matter waht people do. So the battle between good and evil never ends, there is never a happy ending to this it's just who makes small but impactful progress ensuring there is still balance.

 

Then again that isn't true of nature....spcieis go extinct - does that mean bad stuff has won?